the new country song in the early morning

the crew was woken up around 0600 am to respond to a rollover off of the highway about 70 minutes out from their station. They hurriedly got up , laced up thier boots and stepped out into the freezing desert air. With lights on and sirens going they made thier way down the empty highway looking here and there for the mysterious rolled over vechicle. with in 40 minutes this crew discovers a new problem, the dashbaord of thier ambulance started flickering, lights and all..and to thier dismay thier ambulance came to a hault on the side of the road. battery dead and smoke pouring out of the back. The howling wind and the non-heated icey cold ambulance were thier only companions as they discovered that thier contact radio didn't work in the middle of nowhere.
I guess I have never given verizon a chance before but the "network" did pull through and we were able to inform our dispatch of the situation by using our cell phone. we were informed that a tow truck was on its way and that another unit was enroute to the call.
so my precepter has an idea to put the unit in nuteral and coast farther down the highway.. of coarse this works...he is the smart man...we coast down to a old closed fire station and wait..and do i mean wait... wait.
....the unit is dead, therefore the radio doesn't work and so our time is accopenied by the icey cold wind, my emt partner telling us stories of old men getting hit by frozen paintballs, and me and my precepter debating over how many kyotes it would take to drag me off... here and there my precepter would cry "i want some coffee"...after waiting about 35 minutes the tow truck comes..as he is loaded up the unit we decide that this would be a good country song. " the dog died, the house burned down, my wife left me, and my ambulance died on me on the highway." finaly we start making the trip back to station....as we pull in to station the wind kicks up and now the debate it weather it would be easier for the wind to drag be off then kyotes to.
that is my morning..how is yours?

dead will come

everyday people wake up.....
what do they wake up for?.....
to work..
to eat....
to cry...
to laugh...
to live...

but does anyone wake up in the morning and say "i am waking up today to die." ????
even though that sounds crazy i some do..it is sad that some wish to end thier lives early...for some they don't have a choice that day just might be their last......

when you wake up in the morning, what if you were told you were going to die today...what would you say? what would you do? would you be exstra careful in everything... would you watch every move, every step you take..i mean not knowing how you would die...would that make you super conscience about eveything yopu do..trying to save yourself..i guess my question is would you spend the last day of your life trying to save yourself? trying to keep yourself from dieing? or would you live life to the fullest?

everyone no matter how old you are are going to die at one point....knowing that, does is make you want to live your life now to the fullest and for the only one who loves you and cares for you? who gave His life for you?
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"I am the way the trueth and the life."
do you know who said that? The only one who loves you with more love then you thought possible...Jesus Christ!

you will die..i promise you that... are you ready? are you living? or are you a dead man walking?.....

some misteries of the EMS field

Why is it that everytime you are super tired or sick that everyone in the surrounding area needs an ambulance and therefore you keep running and never stop..and when you have had your coffee and you are ready to run a call..nothing happens? the misteries of EMS..there or some misteries that are soo big i don't think anyone will ever discover them..like why a person takes horse steriods? or why a family just sitts on thier couch chilling as thier son flops like a fish in the door way with six slugs in his back? or why an assistent living staff won't send out a patient that has first and second degree burns on thier belly? ...... or simple misteries like why do people slow and cause traffic when there is a timbleweed crossing the freeway but when i am standing on the frwy c-spining a patient in the pouring rain people speed by at like 70mph? or why people call 911 for a nightmare? there are many misteries that can be concluded from stupidity or is it just humanity...i have concluded that people big or small, old or young, wish to live their thier lives to thier fullest but when the chance comes they are scared..are you scared to live?

the good in the beast

so i ask myself over and over again why i always fall for the villians of the story..well i love darth vader, i love davey jones, and i love the joker, and of coarse i fell for lex luther and now my new lover...
i think i find myself looking for the good in them..following thier life stories to see why they turned the villian. the choices they made and the reasoning behind those choices. I watched all six of the star wars movies and i read the books to get a better understanding of the young tatoonie boy who became a sith Lord..my conclusion he grew up with a lack of love, a slave boy with no father and as he grew up he desired to be with the one who loved him, and when he saw that it was impossible alone, he saught after power to help him. Davey jones risk all for a love of a godess and his hatred grew when he thought he was betrayed. the joker is a mistery i think no one will descover. I watched seven season of smallville tracking lex luther's life. a unloved boy who was always searching for a higher good. wanting to do what was right but the only way he knew how to get what he wanted was through lies and betrayal..the only way he had been taught...these villians made alot of thier descions because of a lack of love in thier lifes which bring me to my new intrest. ....
i just got finished watching smallville's season 8, and my heart was captivated by a knew character...a young paramedic who sought after helping the world and mankind...but deep down inside he had another nature which he could not control. A nature that he was created to be..that he had been sent on earth to be and to destroy the world's savior: the red -blue blurr....this nature would come apon him, at first slowly and then without his control to stop. He faught against it and hoped he could stop it. through confession to a priest, through medication..he tried to stop it. He was a unloved boy traveling from foster home to foster home...but something had let him to work in matropolis where he met his savior a young blond reported...through the season he desicovered that as long as he was with her, the love of his life, he could control the beast inside.
But finally as the season premoir approuched he was devided from his evil side...and in the state of his human self he still appeared as a beast when he reached the point of loseing his love. 'Smallville ' does him no justice as his life is taken before we learn anymore about him and what caused this beastly anger to still poses him even with the kryptonian form seperated from him. possible the loe of his love
i was greatly disappointed to see the season end whithout doing him justice....becaue i believe as Clark Kent believed that there is goodness in everyone and it is up to us to find it and encourage it.' Smallville' needs to bring him back beofre its too late...
for paramedic or destroyer, for human or beast...Doomsday will rise..are you ready?