so here i am in 29 palms and i have been studing hematology ( the study of blood)...i have always been intreged by blood..not sure if it is the texture, the color or just the fact that it is the essencial for life. i have never been frightened by blood and i guess that is one of the reasons i enjoy by job so much, for those things don't bother me but rather fascinate me.
maybe it is the fact that we are saved by Jesus Christ enternel blood. the thought that through that we are covered, forgiven and saved...(check out my previous blog 'the blood of Jesus') the componants of blood, the way it flows through the body is crazy if ya really study it. maybe i should have been a vampire..might not be able to do my job then or maybe i could..like the good doctor in twilight...i guess i will never know..guess i am just glad i can be my own vampire in a random odd way...but thats me random and odd.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
the new country song in the early morning
the crew was woken up around 0600 am to respond to a rollover off of the highway about 70 minutes out from their station. They hurriedly got up , laced up thier boots and stepped out into the freezing desert air. With lights on and sirens going they made thier way down the empty highway looking here and there for the mysterious rolled over vechicle. with in 40 minutes this crew discovers a new problem, the dashbaord of thier ambulance started flickering, lights and all..and to thier dismay thier ambulance came to a hault on the side of the road. battery dead and smoke pouring out of the back. The howling wind and the non-heated icey cold ambulance were thier only companions as they discovered that thier contact radio didn't work in the middle of nowhere.
I guess I have never given verizon a chance before but the "network" did pull through and we were able to inform our dispatch of the situation by using our cell phone. we were informed that a tow truck was on its way and that another unit was enroute to the call.
so my precepter has an idea to put the unit in nuteral and coast farther down the highway.. of coarse this works...he is the smart man...we coast down to a old closed fire station and wait..and do i mean wait... wait.
....the unit is dead, therefore the radio doesn't work and so our time is accopenied by the icey cold wind, my emt partner telling us stories of old men getting hit by frozen paintballs, and me and my precepter debating over how many kyotes it would take to drag me off... here and there my precepter would cry "i want some coffee"...after waiting about 35 minutes the tow truck comes..as he is loaded up the unit we decide that this would be a good country song. " the dog died, the house burned down, my wife left me, and my ambulance died on me on the highway." finaly we start making the trip back to station....as we pull in to station the wind kicks up and now the debate it weather it would be easier for the wind to drag be off then kyotes to.
that is my morning..how is yours?
I guess I have never given verizon a chance before but the "network" did pull through and we were able to inform our dispatch of the situation by using our cell phone. we were informed that a tow truck was on its way and that another unit was enroute to the call.
so my precepter has an idea to put the unit in nuteral and coast farther down the highway.. of coarse this works...he is the smart man...we coast down to a old closed fire station and wait..and do i mean wait... wait.
....the unit is dead, therefore the radio doesn't work and so our time is accopenied by the icey cold wind, my emt partner telling us stories of old men getting hit by frozen paintballs, and me and my precepter debating over how many kyotes it would take to drag me off... here and there my precepter would cry "i want some coffee"...after waiting about 35 minutes the tow truck comes..as he is loaded up the unit we decide that this would be a good country song. " the dog died, the house burned down, my wife left me, and my ambulance died on me on the highway." finaly we start making the trip back to station....as we pull in to station the wind kicks up and now the debate it weather it would be easier for the wind to drag be off then kyotes to.
that is my morning..how is yours?
Sunday, October 18, 2009
dead will come
everyday people wake up.....
what do they wake up for?.....
to work..
to eat....
to cry...
to laugh...
to live...
but does anyone wake up in the morning and say "i am waking up today to die." ????
even though that sounds crazy i some do..it is sad that some wish to end thier lives early...for some they don't have a choice that day just might be their last......
when you wake up in the morning, what if you were told you were going to die today...what would you say? what would you do? would you be exstra careful in everything... would you watch every move, every step you take..i mean not knowing how you would die...would that make you super conscience about eveything yopu do..trying to save yourself..i guess my question is would you spend the last day of your life trying to save yourself? trying to keep yourself from dieing? or would you live life to the fullest?
everyone no matter how old you are are going to die at one point....knowing that, does is make you want to live your life now to the fullest and for the only one who loves you and cares for you? who gave His life for you?
"
"I am the way the trueth and the life."
do you know who said that? The only one who loves you with more love then you thought possible...Jesus Christ!
you will die..i promise you that... are you ready? are you living? or are you a dead man walking?.....
what do they wake up for?.....
to work..
to eat....
to cry...
to laugh...
to live...
but does anyone wake up in the morning and say "i am waking up today to die." ????
even though that sounds crazy i some do..it is sad that some wish to end thier lives early...for some they don't have a choice that day just might be their last......
when you wake up in the morning, what if you were told you were going to die today...what would you say? what would you do? would you be exstra careful in everything... would you watch every move, every step you take..i mean not knowing how you would die...would that make you super conscience about eveything yopu do..trying to save yourself..i guess my question is would you spend the last day of your life trying to save yourself? trying to keep yourself from dieing? or would you live life to the fullest?
everyone no matter how old you are are going to die at one point....knowing that, does is make you want to live your life now to the fullest and for the only one who loves you and cares for you? who gave His life for you?
"
"I am the way the trueth and the life."
do you know who said that? The only one who loves you with more love then you thought possible...Jesus Christ!
you will die..i promise you that... are you ready? are you living? or are you a dead man walking?.....
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
some misteries of the EMS field
Why is it that everytime you are super tired or sick that everyone in the surrounding area needs an ambulance and therefore you keep running and never stop..and when you have had your coffee and you are ready to run a call..nothing happens? the misteries of EMS..there or some misteries that are soo big i don't think anyone will ever discover them..like why a person takes horse steriods? or why a family just sitts on thier couch chilling as thier son flops like a fish in the door way with six slugs in his back? or why an assistent living staff won't send out a patient that has first and second degree burns on thier belly? ...... or simple misteries like why do people slow and cause traffic when there is a timbleweed crossing the freeway but when i am standing on the frwy c-spining a patient in the pouring rain people speed by at like 70mph? or why people call 911 for a nightmare? there are many misteries that can be concluded from stupidity or is it just humanity...i have concluded that people big or small, old or young, wish to live their thier lives to thier fullest but when the chance comes they are scared..are you scared to live?
Friday, October 2, 2009
the good in the beast
so i ask myself over and over again why i always fall for the villians of the story..well i love darth vader, i love davey jones, and i love the joker, and of coarse i fell for lex luther and now my new lover...
i think i find myself looking for the good in them..following thier life stories to see why they turned the villian. the choices they made and the reasoning behind those choices. I watched all six of the star wars movies and i read the books to get a better understanding of the young tatoonie boy who became a sith Lord..my conclusion he grew up with a lack of love, a slave boy with no father and as he grew up he desired to be with the one who loved him, and when he saw that it was impossible alone, he saught after power to help him. Davey jones risk all for a love of a godess and his hatred grew when he thought he was betrayed. the joker is a mistery i think no one will descover. I watched seven season of smallville tracking lex luther's life. a unloved boy who was always searching for a higher good. wanting to do what was right but the only way he knew how to get what he wanted was through lies and betrayal..the only way he had been taught...these villians made alot of thier descions because of a lack of love in thier lifes which bring me to my new intrest. ....
i just got finished watching smallville's season 8, and my heart was captivated by a knew character...a young paramedic who sought after helping the world and mankind...but deep down inside he had another nature which he could not control. A nature that he was created to be..that he had been sent on earth to be and to destroy the world's savior: the red -blue blurr....this nature would come apon him, at first slowly and then without his control to stop. He faught against it and hoped he could stop it. through confession to a priest, through medication..he tried to stop it. He was a unloved boy traveling from foster home to foster home...but something had let him to work in matropolis where he met his savior a young blond reported...through the season he desicovered that as long as he was with her, the love of his life, he could control the beast inside.
But finally as the season premoir approuched he was devided from his evil side...and in the state of his human self he still appeared as a beast when he reached the point of loseing his love. 'Smallville ' does him no justice as his life is taken before we learn anymore about him and what caused this beastly anger to still poses him even with the kryptonian form seperated from him. possible the loe of his love
i was greatly disappointed to see the season end whithout doing him justice....becaue i believe as Clark Kent believed that there is goodness in everyone and it is up to us to find it and encourage it.' Smallville' needs to bring him back beofre its too late...
for paramedic or destroyer, for human or beast...Doomsday will rise..are you ready?
i think i find myself looking for the good in them..following thier life stories to see why they turned the villian. the choices they made and the reasoning behind those choices. I watched all six of the star wars movies and i read the books to get a better understanding of the young tatoonie boy who became a sith Lord..my conclusion he grew up with a lack of love, a slave boy with no father and as he grew up he desired to be with the one who loved him, and when he saw that it was impossible alone, he saught after power to help him. Davey jones risk all for a love of a godess and his hatred grew when he thought he was betrayed. the joker is a mistery i think no one will descover. I watched seven season of smallville tracking lex luther's life. a unloved boy who was always searching for a higher good. wanting to do what was right but the only way he knew how to get what he wanted was through lies and betrayal..the only way he had been taught...these villians made alot of thier descions because of a lack of love in thier lifes which bring me to my new intrest. ....
i just got finished watching smallville's season 8, and my heart was captivated by a knew character...a young paramedic who sought after helping the world and mankind...but deep down inside he had another nature which he could not control. A nature that he was created to be..that he had been sent on earth to be and to destroy the world's savior: the red -blue blurr....this nature would come apon him, at first slowly and then without his control to stop. He faught against it and hoped he could stop it. through confession to a priest, through medication..he tried to stop it. He was a unloved boy traveling from foster home to foster home...but something had let him to work in matropolis where he met his savior a young blond reported...through the season he desicovered that as long as he was with her, the love of his life, he could control the beast inside.
But finally as the season premoir approuched he was devided from his evil side...and in the state of his human self he still appeared as a beast when he reached the point of loseing his love. 'Smallville ' does him no justice as his life is taken before we learn anymore about him and what caused this beastly anger to still poses him even with the kryptonian form seperated from him. possible the loe of his love
i was greatly disappointed to see the season end whithout doing him justice....becaue i believe as Clark Kent believed that there is goodness in everyone and it is up to us to find it and encourage it.' Smallville' needs to bring him back beofre its too late...
for paramedic or destroyer, for human or beast...Doomsday will rise..are you ready?
Friday, September 25, 2009
the first 72 hours of internship
the intern was awoken to the sound of her beeping alarm..she reached over and slammed the top of it before she jumped out of bed. The jump wasn't due to a surge of energy but a surge of nervousness...with in 20 minutes the intern was dressed, in her car, and driving to her destination: a small ambulance company in the middle of the dessert. After an hour and a half of driving through a busy freeway, and mountian canyon and miles of dessert she pulled up to the small station..which would not only be her home for the next 72 hours but for the next couple of months...........
nervousness to excitment to motion sickness to rattling her brain to starting ivs, back to nervousness and to excitment again...back and forth back and forth.....
tucking in her shirt to pulling up her hair..to slapping on latex gloves while the sun was blazing in the sky...to waking up to the call of her precepter to lacing up her steele toe boots...to walking out into the cold dessert night ..back and forth, back and forth...through out the next 72 hours....
through all this constant going the intern approuched eat call with anticipation, nervousness, excitment and a chance to walk onto the chaotic scene and start leading as a paranedic intern. from a pediatric bike crash to phyc patients to chest pain, to a whinning 20 year old drama queen to hopping through the broken window of a 93 year old ramblig women to a long transport to camp penalton..call after call the intern assessed and treated with the help of her understanding preceptor...she made it and can she do the next 72 hours next week?
by God 's grace, by prayer, by hard work this paramedic intern will jump through this hoop..in the strenght of God, in the representation of CHC, in the consideration of her patients in all to be a praemedic.
thank you God, for being with me.....
nervousness to excitment to motion sickness to rattling her brain to starting ivs, back to nervousness and to excitment again...back and forth back and forth.....
tucking in her shirt to pulling up her hair..to slapping on latex gloves while the sun was blazing in the sky...to waking up to the call of her precepter to lacing up her steele toe boots...to walking out into the cold dessert night ..back and forth, back and forth...through out the next 72 hours....
through all this constant going the intern approuched eat call with anticipation, nervousness, excitment and a chance to walk onto the chaotic scene and start leading as a paranedic intern. from a pediatric bike crash to phyc patients to chest pain, to a whinning 20 year old drama queen to hopping through the broken window of a 93 year old ramblig women to a long transport to camp penalton..call after call the intern assessed and treated with the help of her understanding preceptor...she made it and can she do the next 72 hours next week?
by God 's grace, by prayer, by hard work this paramedic intern will jump through this hoop..in the strenght of God, in the representation of CHC, in the consideration of her patients in all to be a praemedic.
thank you God, for being with me.....
Friday, September 18, 2009
good or bad dreams
in four years of working in the EMS field i have responded to many different places for many different things but honestly none has been more rediculous then the one i ran monday night. I have ran i calls such as 'toe pain'..such as 'outer ear pain' many many many...but none as rediculous as a person calling 9-1-1 for....( i mean i was always taught that ambulance service, fire dept. medical aides, and first responders are for emergencies..isn't that why we are called emergency medical technicians? I understand that to every patient their situation is an emergency to them...people alot of the time don't understand why they feel a certian way so they call 9-1-1..which is fine and i am there to help) but seriously who calls for.. and you are gonna laugh when you hear it...no joke..you ready...they called because they had a NIGHTMARE... crazy right? no rediculous!!!! i thought it was some kind of a joke at first..or someone in need of alot of help but wasn't able to communicate that when they called..always thier for my patients giving them the benifit of the doubt..but when we arrived the patient walked out of thier home and said yes they had a nightmare and that they don't need us now..we stepped back into to the ambulance and informed our dispatcher that we were cancelled and that the patient really only had a nightmare...the response from dispatch was a 'copy' and then an annonymous voice from one of our other employees came over the radio with 'i see dead people' .........
my thought now is that at the end of the world when any nonbeliever stands before God at the judgment seat..will not be able to blame thier unbelief on a nightmare, won't be able to call 9-1-1 for help....and will realize that spiritualy thier whole lives they were the 'dead people walking'.........
do you have nightmares? do you have nightmares just thinking about the judgment seat? or is that whole picture of standing before God a beautiful dream? we only live once for a short time on earth but when Jesus comes back we will live eternally in only one of two places..which one are you going to be living at? and is eternaly life a beautiful dream or a.... nightmare?
my thought now is that at the end of the world when any nonbeliever stands before God at the judgment seat..will not be able to blame thier unbelief on a nightmare, won't be able to call 9-1-1 for help....and will realize that spiritualy thier whole lives they were the 'dead people walking'.........
do you have nightmares? do you have nightmares just thinking about the judgment seat? or is that whole picture of standing before God a beautiful dream? we only live once for a short time on earth but when Jesus comes back we will live eternally in only one of two places..which one are you going to be living at? and is eternaly life a beautiful dream or a.... nightmare?
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